welcome to my blog. for the past 9 years i've been struggling with depression, ED/EDNOS, and dealing with awful people and falling in love with those who do not love me back.

i originally set up this blog with the idea of "i just want to be skinny again like i used to be" and full of anger towards most things. i'm ready to start making more positive changes, instead of living my life being sad and worthless all the time.

now i want to be happy. i'm still on a mission to be skinny, but i'm done with feeling worthless all the time. i may post depressing things every now and then because moods do change, but for the most part it's time to stop with the self-pity and take my life into my own hands so i can accomplish what i want to accomplish.

if you want to chat, or have questions, i'd love to talk and help you with your journey. we're all in this together, so no matter what, let's stick together!

Bust: 33 (goal: 32)
Waist: 26 (goal: 24)
Hips: 34 (goal: 32)

H: 5'1"
HW: 130
CW: 117
LW: 110
GW1: 115
GW2: 105

22nd December 2011

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Weight Loss Train:

get-thinspiration:

find the area that has the number of lbs you need to lose, reblog and add your url :)

10 or less lbs:

http://zerocalorie.tumblr.com

http://perfecti0nkills.tumblr.com/

150lbsto120lbs.tumblr.com

11-20 lbs:


21-30 lbs:
http://eatbetterfeelbetterlookbetter.tumblr.com

http://aly-shrinks.tumblr.com

31-40 lbs:

http://fitisunderneathfat.tumblr.com

41-50 lbs:

http://fatfinallygone.tumblr.com

http://becomewhatyouwant.tumblr.com/

50+ lbs:

http://get-thinspiration.tumblr.com

http://fatasstoskinnybitch.tumblr.com

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22nd December 2011

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wow it’s been a while since i’ve been here

it’s been a big last few weeks. family catching onto my issues, lack of appetite, weight loss, unhappiness, lack of energy, failing at life.

i still think moving will change things because i’ll be experiencing something different and new, but everyone tells me my problems will follow me. but I’ve been trying to deal with my problems and they just keep getting worse because no one understands me, and as i’m trying to get them to it just causes more fights. more and more problems and now it’s the holidays and i’m dreading it. christmas will be fun, but i’m still not looking forward to everything. everyone is stressing me out and i can’t handle pretty much anything in my life…especially cause i’m out of weed right now. 

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